She will be watever she wants to be
She will sing and dance and compose
songs whenever or wherever she is
She will love and cherish the things that
she wants to love and cherish
She will say anything she wants to say to anyone
She will think watever she wants to think
She will show her emotions whenever the
tyme is needed
She will learn watever she wants to learn
Lastly...She will dream constantly till that
dream becomes a reality
My Story...내 이야기...私の物語
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
okie.let me tell u my first experience in an operating theatre..SCARY....hontouni kowai desu....
okie as some noe i had to go through surgey because it is said to be a lump..a very small lump found in my left foot big toe and it has caused me pain and a lot of inconvenience for the past 4 years....for the past 3 years, the pain was not as bad as this year so i chose to ignore it and carry on with my normal activities, kayaking, running, dancing etc..
but not knowingly it became worst as the years passed and this year after doctor consultation i can't do the things i like the most...and with that i decided to go for surgey in hopes that it will heal and i can go back to my activities...
so yea on 24th August 2009, i reported to the Day Surgery centre at TTSH at 9.30am...change into the hospital attire and sat down as i wait for my time to go into the operating theatre...when my time comes, i walk nervously into OT 6 where i was told to sit on the operating table and they start the first procedure which is taking my blood pressure and my heart rate and strapping me down on the Operating Table...when the surgeon came in, he told me that he is going to inect me..that was my worst nightmare cos he injected e at 2 point on my left toe, the intense pain, i felt like shouting and cry...well when he poked the needle, the pain was not that much as the time when he was pulling out the needle which realli realli painful...
then my big toe went numb and thus the surgery proceeds...when he was cutting the skin and flesh, i realli could feel it being cut...but as the minutes passed by when he removed the lump, i was actualli about to cry despite i couldn't feel the pain that much, but i my heart i was so so scared...
after around 15min or so, the surgeon stitch up the toe, i could feel some easeness taht i'm glad it is over...but the feeling of going through that while i was fully awake made me proud of myself cos despite being so scared, i was strong going through such surgery..after being wheeed out on the wheelchair, i was advised not to move around so much that now at home i ended up sitting in my room the whole time cos if i move, the toe will definitely be very very painful...i just hope that i can recover fully from this...
