She will be watever she wants to be
She will sing and dance and compose
songs whenever or wherever she is
She will love and cherish the things that
she wants to love and cherish
She will say anything she wants to say to anyone
She will think watever she wants to think
She will show her emotions whenever the
tyme is needed
She will learn watever she wants to learn
Lastly...She will dream constantly till that
dream becomes a reality
My Story...내 이야기...私の物語
Friday, May 29, 2009
hey there all...
well besides stressing myself trying to think of a good lyric for Arashi 10th year anniversary gift and a good lyric for BigBang..i also got other problemz to solve..the date and tyme for Titans outing and Arashi SG fan outing!!!!
fish!!!!!!!!!
hehe well it seems my english is not powerful enough to safe me frm the misery of writing lyrics...but my schedules and ppl are making me miserable in deciding the date for outing!!! futhermore $$ is also making me stress out!!!! hontou~!!!!!!
aniwae my it seems my love for Arashi is far more than my love for my Kpop ichibans....dunno but i think i noe...hehe...hope my kpop ichiban will have more activities becos of that i ran to Arashi who is now have new dramas, their own TV shows plus new songs and appearance!!!!
hehe..mianhae guess i am not loyal to BigBang but at least i still go to their forum everyday..but Rain and Se7en, it seems the love has gone down the drain....i rarely update myself on them...so yea Gomen and Mianhae....!!!
8:53 PM
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
okie..how long has it been...??
hehe..
so yea i officially graduated frm TP on 20th May 2009...
and yea so now i'm an 'Unemployed Graduate'...hehe...and worst still i didn't apply for university...
so how?? dunno waiting for miracle i guess...
other than that i dunno if u all know i got my NIKE shoe!!!! yes well not high cut but still its a NIKE!!! haha
and yea i lazy to elaborate the rest..hehe
aniwae yes i changed my blogskin to my own..something that will say that DEPRESSIONALISM HAS DONE IT AGAIN!!! haha nice right... well i did my best using photoshop...hehe
aniwae i still want to see ARASHI in a live concert....not the one on YOUTUBE!!
and yea u guys should check out The Quiz Show 2 and Smile...nice jdrama and yea i'm simply in love with Ashita no Kioku and Crazy Moon ~ Kimi wa Muteki~
12:36 AM
Sunday, May 10, 2009
well i just watched Mago Mago Arashi Rowing Club SP where they volunteered themseves to be in a rowing team to make a grandfather's dream come true, "to be able to row again with young people"...however that dream have become their own dream, "to be able to compete and win though if we lost, we won't be emberrased"
well watching their efforst,endurance, determintation and fighting spirits through ups and downs and also with tight schedules to meet [well they are singing idols who have other jobs such as acting, recording etc.] i am proud to say that i was so amazed by them...they are idols who have made the biggest impression in my whole life...
watching through the episodes one after another, i can understand their feelings everytime they went for rowing training and practices, their whinings, pain and goals...well to look at it, they actual reminded me of those glory days i have when i entered the National Canoeing Competition back in 2003 - 2004 and my NCC[Sea] Annual Kayaking Competition...the fighting spirits we have before we enter the competition and when the competition day arrive...
it was training every week for abt 2-3 days per week, frm 2pm to 6pm...we went through gym training, land training and yes sea training.i remember how tired we all get after training in the school bus..we all will either go crazy and start singing songs or doze off frm Kallang to Sembawang...
well my first encounter with sea sports was in 2002 when i joined NCC[Sea]...al members have to proficient with kayaking..well i only start to get myself skillful in kayaking in 2003, when i was 14 yrs old..i was lagging behind most of my friends cos in 2002 i skipped most of my trainings...then in 2003 after completing my 1-Star Kayaking Proficiency Course, my teacher put my name into the national canoeing competition and my NCC[Sea] Anual Kayaking Competition..that time my interest for kayaking was kinda low...
one fine day, when our first canoeing training started, it was our first time seeing our Coach David who have been coaching Serangoon JC canoeing team...well it was akward but we showed our best efforts in the first training..we were actuali training with the JC teams also...so they were like our Sunbae and Sempai...we got tips from them and practised our strokes and direction every sea training we went down..sometimes we even have races with the JC students..well we can't even match up to their canoeing skills...they pretty damn good..and comparing them to National JC [the top canoeing team in Singapore], the SRJC team was weaker than the NJC team...so the gap between us with SRJC and NJC was very far..we can't match up to all their skills..though we might be called NCC[Sea] and be proficient in kayaking, but when it comes to National levels, we are considered the lower ranking ppl...so every week we did land training and sea training with all our heart and effoorts..we gave our all to improve ourselves...we had full of motivation because of all the hopes and supports that our teachers [Miss Ku, Miss Wong, Miss Ng, Mr Nasir], our Coach and the SRJC seniors...everytime we stepped into the waters of Kallang Basin, our confidence grew with every training till the competition day in July...imagine from March till July...for 4 months of training was it enough for us...well i was put in the 750m T2 competition...i start with full spirit and determination..qualifying to the finals to me is possible but however when the race starts and ends, the winning spirit also gone because we were DQed for kayaking into other kayakers lane..so it was a dissapointment...but when the last race the T2 and T1 500m started, we were full of spirit once again when two of our team were able to made it into the finals...smiles were seen on every members face...but in the end, we still never get to win any medals..but during the NCC[Sea] competition, our trainings since March paid off...we girls sweep all the gold medals for all the girls category...it was the most joyous and victorious day for our girls team...we gave it all and say we will return back to the Canoeing competiton next year with full confidence...
well training in 2004 resumes in March...well this time i tried the T1 since my partner for T2 has decided not to join...from T1 i was put to K2, which is the most slimmest canoe i ever seen and ride on...the first few weeks of training was trying to balance the kayak without capsizing...but everytime we capsized after a few minutes launching..there was a lot of frustration and miscommunication between me and my new partner..i was also constantly scolded for not keeping my legs together and everytime we capsized i felt so guilty for not doing what i was told though it was in my head but i can't execute it somehow...so there was a lot of frustration because of this...but we trained even more harder for the next few weeks...we even had a new surprise for our team...we got our own Braca pedals at last..now we have pedals to call our own though we don't have canoes to call ours...haha...after abt 1 and a half months after i started using K2, our balance got better, we even get to hold our balance throughout the whole training...now was to focus on our coordination and speed...but unfortunately one day, the somewhat tragedy happened at our training ground...the collapse of Nicoll Highway which has kind of affected our training for a while...but that doesn't dampen our spirits and motivation to train hard...despite that, i could see my partner's and my speed and coordination starting to weaken...our frustration begins again but we continued to do our very best till the day of the competition..few days before the competition and even before the day of competiton, during our last training we had a team meeting...our teacher was proud seeing us improving day by day..and my advice was as long as i don't capsize they are still proud of us since we are the first K2 team in Canberra...i was even termed the most determined person in the team...so competiton day...we were put into the 500m K2 race..seeing the other competitiors we thought we can at least qualify and won't capsize...i was full of nervouseness since that was my first time in a quite unstable kayak competing..when the airhorn sound, we started our first strokes very strong..we weren't first but we were in a position which can bring us to the finals...but however towards the ending,we moved from that saved position to last place when the other team caught up with us...we were dissapointed but when we returned to shore, our teammates were still smiling cause they know we did the best we can...haha that day, i won't forget it...so the day went on and only one team managed to get into the finals, the T1 500m...but again we lost...but after that we focused on our NCC competition...again we gain vctorious,sweeping all the gold medals once again...haha..we became the most threatening NCC Girls team...hehe we won't want this to end but however the year later, we had to steppd down for we are going to take our 'O' Levels and thus no time for training...the Canoeing team also collapsed and our NCC team has starting to show declination in their spirits and strength in the competiton...well for a senior, i was so dissapointed that i promised that i will bring back our title no matter what it takes though i have ended school and out of NCC...i will do anything to get our team spirit back..
when i look at it and comparing my team with Arashi's Rowing Team, there were alot of similarities and differences...the part where they start to loose interest because of frustration not being able to improve and miscommunication, i have experienced them before...the feeling of self accomplishment and being in full spirit, in high confidence and with a lot of motivation, i also have experienced that before...but if to compare them to my team, they ony took 3 months to train though they had busy schedules and best i that they had no experience or background in rowing before..unlike me who has more than 6 years experince in kayaking and canoeing with training lasting from March to November every year...so because of that, i was amazed at Arashi's team spirit and determination.i was so envious of them that i actualli cried when they compete and they lost though they were full of spirit to win...haha..watching MMA Rowing Club has given me back my interest to do kayaking once more...and yea make me remember those days..maybe one day i want to see them compete again or maybe let them try canoeing instead..haha...
Arashi's never ending spirits are my motivation now to ensure my NCC team to be at their best spirit and regain their interest in winning for our Annual Kayaking Competiton and retaining our title we had secured since 2003 to 2006
ARIGATOU GOZAIMASU,KAMSAHAMNIDA and THANK YOU TO ARASHI FOR GIVING ME BACK THAT FIGHTING SPIRIT!!!
